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Learning The Hard Way by Dana It pains me to see so many of my loved ones going through stuff I've already been through. Seeing them take the same dead end turns I did. I want so badly to tell them the end results of their actions. I want to grab hold of them and make then snap out of their ignorance. But like me, they are hard headed, and think "well thats you, dont preach to me, I get by." I am always thinking back to times I was told the same exact advice and responded like I knew it all. I'm ashamed of the things I've done. And I dont want anyone else to feel the sting of wasted years. I'm 26 years old, and I will always stand out because of my tatoos. My reputation was all I ever made of my life, and Im having to start all over, learn who I was meant to be, not who I made myself be. I have to re-direct my young son, cuz most of his life I showed him nothing but dysfunction. I struggle with my old ways of thinking, especially when conflict arises. I really dont know if this post has a point or not. I just want young people to think about their future. Cuz there is one. I never saw a future for myself. I only lived for that day. And my life went in tragic torturous circles. I relived the same grief and pain over and over. And it made me hate the world. All cuz I took the easy way out. Living crazy is said to be a hard life, and people want respect for it. But Im coming real when I say trying to live like a normal member of society is hard. That deserves respect. Not throwing yourself to drugs, violence, gangs etc. Anyone can do that. Anyone can beat someone up or shove powder in their nose, or shoot a gun. Does anyone feel me?
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