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A Way Out

for those who may know me, I receive prayer requests on the site. I am not the only one, but i noticed I get the same request from a lot of ppl. They wanna get out of the gang.

I know how they feel, I was a G for 3 years. There was about 20 of us. not a very big set, but we had a little muscle. I thought it was cool, i felt powerful cuz i knew these folks got my back. most of them were in and out of jail or juve halls, but there was alway enough of us around to kick it with. I spent most of my time gettin' high. Not very involved with bangin', i was a GD, and no one but bloods and crips where around. some bloods had beef, most didn't. my regent got violated by the some of the OG's in the hood the GD's originated, and my homey and I got promoted while he got demoted. there was division in the click now, some sided with us, some sided with the other, but all this was under the surface. it didnt come out til my homey had to give up his rank back cuz he was messin' up, and next thing you know he gets set up for a jack on a qp by the regent's right hand man. by then, i was through. bunch of backstabbin', hatin'. I had enough. i also came to know Christ, and was lookin' for an excuse, cuz God and gangbangin' go together like peanuts and bubblegum. It ain't workin'. So, I was doin' a lot of finger pointin', and well the g's didn't like that so i was up for a violation. i told my regent to screw off, and take his g junk and cram it. (not in those words, i hadn't know Christ that long yall)

i got some death threats, the g's came to my work and threatened me over the counter, said they were comin' back when i got off. I got some threatenin' phone calls, but that was it. I ran into him 6 months later at the mall,and i was about to turn around and walk quickly away, but a voice inside, like my conscience told me to face him. he was strollin' with 2 crips, one OG who just got out of the pen, and it was none of their business, but i had a nice ride, a herringbone, and a nice jacket. I figure i'd probably get followed and jacked. But i went to face em head on, shook his hand and said what's up. he didn't say much, but we talked for about 30 seconds and i was on my way. i had faced my fears. now these folks knew where i lived,where i worked, all that. Yet nothin' happened. WHY?

The bible says that "when a man's ways please the Lord, he makes even his enemies at peace with him." Proverbs 16:7 I had a desire to change and follow christ, and somehow supernaturally they just didn't have the heart to kill me. They could've, and surely the Folks in the big GD hoods in the city caught wind of it. I met 'em, kicked it wit' em. OG's, tatooed tears. The folks were killers. but 6 years later I am still alive. Check out this paraphrase of the 91st Psalm-
Psalm 91
1You who sit down in the High God's presence, spend the night in Shaddai's shadow,
2Say this: "GOD, you're my refuge.
I trust in you and I'm safe!"
3That's right--he rescues you from hidden traps,
shields you from deadly hazards.
4His huge outstretched arms protect you-
under them you're perfectly safe;
his arms fend off all harm.
5Fear nothing--not wild wolves in the night,
not flying arrows in the day,
6Not disease that prowls through the darkness,
not disaster that erupts at high noon.
7Even though others succumb all around,
drop like flies right and left,
no harm will even graze you.
8You'll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance,
watch the wicked turn into corpses.
9Yes, because GOD's your refuge,
the High God your very own home,
10Evil can't get close to you,
harm can't get through the door.
11He ordered his angels
to guard you wherever you go.
12If you stumble, they'll catch you;
their job is to keep you from falling.
13You'll walk unharmed among lions and snakes,
and kick young lions and serpents from the path.

14"If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says GOD,
"I'll get you out of any trouble.
I'll give you the best of care
if you'll only get to know and trust me.
15Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times;
I'll rescue you, then throw you a party.
16I'll give you a long life,
give you a long drink of salvation!"

To those who feel trapped, with no way out of the gang, meditate on those words. I am alive today cuz of those words. Daniel slept in the lion's den. God is the same then as he is now. Trust in Christ for your salvation. Salvation is a big word church people ue. people think of it as fire insurance, free ticket outta hell. Yeah, there is some truth to that, but it is more than that. The word in the bible dictionary is translated to mean, deliverance, safety, soundness, preservation, health. Romans 10:13 Whosoever shall call upon the Lord Christ shall be saved" peace-E