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Only 16 Years Old
Well i'm from northern califas. Ever since i was little i was always pressured to join gangs. I had family that were surenos and others that were nortenos. Well they'd always dress me up in either red or blue. They'd say "don't wear red, wear blue" or the opposite. well i liked surenos better than nortenos so i started kickin it with them and wearin all blue. i'd never be wearing red. at 11 years old i was already raggin da blue, gettin into fights just because someone called me a "scrap" and would be kickin it with da gang. Although i was never jumped in. I never really wanted to be. I saw a LOT of homeboys and homegirls die in the hands of a revenge or enemy. I was always thinking "am i next?" although i'm not afraid to die. A couple of months ago, i moved to Southern califas. There i got jumped in. I was stupid. Especially because two weeks later i moved back to my home. I never told anybody i was jumped in. Although mah familia and friends knew down south. (when i say familia i mean my cuzins cause mah tias and tios would trip and would tell mah jefa) Finally a month ago, i told mah best homegirl that i was jumped in. She told me i was stupid. i know i was. (mah best homegirl don't claim anything) People might think being in a gang is da shit but believe me its not. Its stupid. Take it from me. A full surena. I'm tryin to do whatever i can to get away from all that. its not gonna be easy but i know i'll be able to. Everyone thinks that if they are with a gang member, they are going to be protected. But who is going to protect them from the gang member? not all of them are all sweet and nice. I've had a few who've tried to rape me, some of them have tried to drug my drink, and some have actually put their hands on me. But whatevers ya know? That was what i always thought. But seriously. You may be thinking i'm older because of some of da shit i've been through. This is only a small portion of it. But i'm only 16 years old. |