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Violent love by Shadow

I've loved and I've lost,
played this game at any cost,
Now im stuck being grown,
and still all alone.
Broken promises, shattered dreams,
Everything isn't what it seems.
I remember better days, and happier times,
When it felt like the whole world was mine.
He held me tightly and swore he'd never leave,
then he'd get drunk and begin to beat me.
What kind of love is that?
He only loved me when I was on my back.
Tried with all his might to break me down, and make me cry,
Sometimes I even wanted to die.
Started off with mean words, and a harsh tone,
punches and slaps were next,
right before that cold chrome.
How can a man who says he loves you hurt you to you're core?
And why did I stay, did I really want more?
All these unanswered questions, I'll never know,
Because finally one day I woke up and had to go.
Packed all my stuff, grabbed my shorty and hopped on that train,
I had to get away from this pain.
Moved out of state,
escaping his rage.
Even with all that I feel and this hate,
why do I miss him and question our fate?
I feel like I gave up on him,
Sabatoged what might have been,
even knowing that if I stayed to make it work,
it would have been the death of me, quite literally-you see.
Love is truly blind,
the bruises heal with time,
but the anger, the violence, the death threats, those are forever engraved in my mind..

-Shadow
09.13.07