AS I SIT HER REFLECTIN TRYIN 2 CHANGE MY LIFE 4 GOOD N GIVE UP DIS ISH, I REALIZE DA STREETZ N MONEY WUZ MORE IMPORTANT 2 ME DEN U, BUT IT MUSTA BEEN DA SAME WAY WIT CHU, CUZ WE BOTH LET EACH OTHER GO WITHOUT LOOKIN BAK, OR AT LEAST DAT WUT BE BOTH SAID 2 EACH OTHER, INSIDE I KNO U HURTIN N INSIDE U KNO I STILL LUV U N U LUV ME, JUZ KNO IMA ALWAYZ KARE BOUT U MA, N DAT I MEANT WUT I SAID WHEN I TOLD U I LUVD U N ALWAYZ WILL, LIKE I SAID, TRILL LUV NEVER DIEZ...
I SHUD HAVE REALIZED $$$ CANT BUY LUV, IM SORRY I PUT $$ N DA STREETZ B4 U, I SHUD HAVE KALLD WHEN U WANTED ME 2 N WHEN U NEEDED ME...BUT I WUZNT STRONG ENUFF, MY HEART WUZ AWREADY BROKEN FROM LOOSIN PPL I LUVD...I KNO I LET U DOWN...I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT IT IN MY CORAZON 2...U GUTTA 4GIVE ME THO N UNDERSTAND DAT I WUZN'T LIVIN RITE N I WUZN'T FOLLOWIN GOD N KEEPIN HIM 1ST...DER4 I CANT B BLAMED CUZ DATZ NOT WHO GOD CREATED ME 2 B..I DIDN'T KNO GOD FULLY N WUZNT KEEPIN HIM 1ST IN WUT I DID N SAID...DATZ Y I WUZNT THINKIN N DOIN RITE...UNDERSTAND DAT IF U CAN...
N U RITE BOUT NOT APPRECIATIN WUT U HAVE UNTIL ITZ GONE N U LOSE IT...DATZ DA TRUTH...I WISH I KUD GO BAK N CHANGE THANGZ, IF ONLY I KNEW WE WUD LOSE EACH OTHER 4EVA...N I REMEMBER US BOTH SAYIN R LIFE WUD B PERFECT 2GETHER N DAT WE WANTED 2 B WIT EACH OTHER 4EVA...ITZ AMAZIN HOW UNSTABLE PPL R N HOW DEY CHANGE....DATZ Y ITZ ESSENTIAL 2 REALIZE ONLY GOD IZ PERFECT N ONLY GOD IZ 4EVA N STAYZ DA SAME...
BUT IMAGINE IF GOD DIDN'T 4GIVE U...DATZ Y U GUTTA 4GIVE THOZE WHO HURT U N CAUSE U PAIN, N UNDERSTAND Y DEY WUD DO IT...EXAMINE DER HEART N INTENTIONZ...C IF DEY REALLY COLD BLOODED, OR IF DEY WUZ JUZ IGNORANT N MISGUIDED N DIDN'T KNO RITE FROM WRONG...DER R SUM PPL OUT DER WHO R HUMBLE N WANNA CHANGE N REALIZE DER WRONG, U JUZ GUTTA BELIEVE IN DEM...N NO1 BELIEVED IN ME...OR MAYB I STOPPD BELIEIVIN IN MYSELF, BUT IM CHANGIN MY LIFE 2DAY...IM TIRED OF LIVIN DIS LIFE WIT PAIN I CAUSE MYSELF...
......~WIT UNDERSTANDIN KUMZ DA ELIMINATION OF PAIN~......
HEREZ WUT I LEARND FROM A PASTOR 2DAY,
GREAT FAITH KUMZ FROM LIVIN N DOIN ERRTHANG LIKE YA LIFE IZ DEPENDENT ON IT...
ALSO, LIFE WILL ONLY GIVE U WUT U SETTLE 4...
GUARD UR HEART, DONT LET NEGATIVITY IN2 IT, IF U ALLOW PPL 2 HURT U N BRING U DOWN, U WILL HAVE A BAD HEART N THINK BAD N LOSE FAITH IN GOD...ONLY ALLOW GOOD THANGZ IN YA HEART, CUZ YA HEART IZ DA CREATOR OF ERRTHANG U DO...TRILL TALK!!..
EXCUSEZ MAKE U FEEL BETTER ABOUT BEIN A FAILURE...DONT MAKE EXCUSEZ 4 Y THANGZ R FUKD UP N Y U CANT DO SUFFIN...DONT B A FAILURE...U CAN PERSAVERE N OVERKUM IF U KEEP GOD 1ST!!!...
FINALLY, LEAN ON DA LORD FULLY, LIKE YA LIFE IZ DEPENDENT ON IT, N REALLY IT IZ, CUZ IF U LIVE WITHOUT GOD 1ST IN YA LIFE, U WILL ONLY FAIL N ALL U DO!!...IF U ONLY PARTIALLY FOLLOW GOD N LEAN ON HIM, YA LIFE WILL STILL BRING U PAIN N PROBLEMZ...LEAN ON HIM 100% N DONT LIVE 4 NUFFIN N NO1 ELSE BUT GOD!!!...