A shot to the brain blood splattered on the wall,
A face gone white, a heavy body took a fall.
Pain to the brain, no pain to sustain,
The point of the shot to take away the insane.
Tears dried up left small marks,
Fear was in the hand until the light turned dark.
Sweat on the forehead now smoothered in red,
A life gone in an instance, so quick to b dead.
Shallow heart still shallow as ever,
Thoughts of failure, never thought u could measure.
Measure up to something, something you could stand for
But you took it all away, before you had a chance to do more.
Now the body at my feet, with no heart to hear beat,
Your brain sprayed everywhere, this body is incomplete.
Blood on my face, for 2 hours I haven’t moved,
My state of mind is lost, my physical is there but my mind is removed.
My hands set still, my eyes focus on this reality,
Took your life in your own hands, with your deranged mentality.
I am stuck in the floor, eyes widely viewing,
I wish I could explain but I don’t know what im doing.
Watching it repeat over and over in my head,
Carpet soaked red but yet still tears I haven’t shed.
In shock, staring at hand that held the glock,
That took away your time, completely stopped your clock.
This picture is infecting my brain, makine me feel insane,
Thoughts running through me, I have pain that will stain.
Everytime I look at you, I feel a burn inside,
That day when you took your life a part of me also died.
Street Gang Message Boards » Gang related poetry
Stained Heart
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Posted 1 year ago #
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Hey, thank you for posting this, Im glad to see you back on here. This must have been hard to write this. But thank you for sharing your heart and rhymes.
Posted 1 year ago # -
Mo
Good to see you back, hope all is going well, great writing as always
In Jesus Name
Posted 1 year ago # -
Danng Matik... U wrote this a long asss time ago
I remeber about my 1st time on here like 2-3 yrs
ago I read it... And i saved it... It's still saved till
this dayPosted 1 year ago # -
Damm...this almost made me come to tears...**** of a write..I couldn't lay something down like that..nor do i have thee experience or heart to..least I don't think..so I give you your props Mo..thats sum shyt girl..thats like shockin' almost to me ya know..
not that it wasn't good..it was on point..you gave a visual picture of what you were writing about, to the reader....you just hit me real hard..cus i don't think I've ever witnessed something like that from you before...
and again..it makes me think of my homeboy recently incarcerated over crap like that...so your rhyme really hit some feelings with me..which trips me out...keep writing, keep rhyming..you can only get better Mo..and you have built up a mountain of skill at it I see...
I'm shockingly impressed :)
Posted 1 year ago # -
Dollface thank you for your post, its nice to hear than someone feels your work and its awesome that you saved it! Thanks for the encouragement!
Teddii, thanks for the props as well and I am very sorry about your homie! Keep your head up and let me know how you livin!Posted 1 year ago # -
I really don't know what ta say about my homeboy Mo..
I mean I watched him stand infront of a church congregation & be like "...Hey my name is" & "I give my life to you" & etc. etc.
I watched & observed alot of what that dude had...a nice house on the northside of town where homie lived with his dad..his girlfriend, his personality..his laughter, homie's jokes..just mad mad funny jokes. I mean..I tried having mad love for that dude..I let him kick it with me at my grandma's pad, cus his dad always was kicking him out of his house..
and I basically watched him fake & front on Dana, when Dana even tried to take him in..and all he did was cause problems...
He never stopped gang banging I don't think...just at random..
But I used to see his mom downtown alot at the bus depo.
But I never did get the point of her sassing me out just because I went up to her one day & introduced myself & told her I was one of her son's friends..
She told me.."You are??? So you know my son??? I really really don't want to talk about my son!"
and I think it was either Dana or one of my homegirls that pulled me back away from her, as I was saying "Well lady..somebody needs to talk about your son! YOU need to talk about your son! YOU need to do something! If you know what your son has done.."
and I'm pretty sure it lingered in her mind more so than anyone else who knew the homeboy...
Maybe i shouldn't of said anything to her or introduced myself at all..but I know shes seen me with Dana at Dana's church & with her son..so how could she not know I was one of her son's friends..???
My guess was..that she knew wtf her son was into..she just didn't know what to do about it and she never wanted to talk about it...which I think is dumm on the parents part..She could be helping young kids teaching them not to go out & do like her son did...but instead, she just seemed like this quiet lady who seemed to think I was just another one of her son's WestSide Boyz..and I was trying to explain to her that I'm not & that me & her son lived in different sides of town & when I did do shyt like her son..it wasn't with the WestSide Boyz..and I for daym sure didn't go shooting anyone..so I couldn't really understand her hostility towards me at all..especially when she didn't even know what my name was or where I came from even...Me & Dana tried to save her son from what he was doing! Not be a ****' part of his gang life..and she should know that.. *SMH*
Posted 1 year ago # -
Well a lot of people have a hard time with reality and realizing what their close ones are doing especially when it is their child. I am sorry that their was so much hostility towards you but at the same time you cannot take it person because it seems to me that she is struggling inside with herself and the things her son had been doing. Also a lot of time parents dont always know what their kids are doing and which friend is which. A lot of people assume the worst of others and if she knew you were cool with her son then she may have assumed you were a part of the negative. It sucks to be judged and to be treated ways that you dont deserve but you have to push forward and remember what the truth is. You were someone who was trying to help and do good and if she didnt see that or wasnt aware of it quite frankly oh well!
Posted 1 year ago # -
Yeah I understand...although I tried to help him, as did Dana..as I stated, I have never been a WestSide Boy (also known as WSBZ), but then again..me & him were from the same clique..just different sides of town..so I can see whereas she may of thought or knew I was gangsta too..like her son..which I know already that we're not liked
(in means of GS members too that is), so I really didn't expect this lady to understand that I was trying to help her son out..So I took it in pride & shame..and just took what she said like "You'll NEVER know lady..I respect you..I got love for your son, even though his crime was unspeakable..he must of had his reasons..I'm sorry if you only see me as a bad person..cus I'm not..I wouldn't be sitting in a church if I was..I wouldn't want forgiveness for my Sins..like everyone does...I tried to help because I saw & knew your son was a hardcore gangsta & he needed real help immediately..but me & Dana weren't seeming to get through to him...None of us are perfect...but oh well lady..think as you will ya know..yeah, I'm a homeboy..what else do you want me to say?? Do you want me to lie to you?? or cover it up like I'm afraid of you knowing that???..I'm sorry..but I won't..I'm sorry for what your son has put you & your family through lady..if I never said anything..you would've thought I was just another young man at the bus station..but naw..I know about you lady..your my homeboy's mother..and you go to same Church as Dana..and me & your son have hung out many times before..since he was 12 years old & I met him walking down the street..before his younger brother got locked up for trying to stab homeboy in the head..this is what I learn from being observant & keeping my mouth shut..thats gangsta shyt lady...the things I know..help me God.."
(WestSide Boyz are also known just as "Boyz gang")
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