So I stayed up all night...apparently my girl believes I am dyllusional...LOL
I told her about all the drugs in my life that I've had experiences with..
and benst we met after conversating on a group entitled **** Meth Addicts..
I would expect my girlfriend to know a little about the side effects of Meth...one so happens to be "dyllusions"..being dyllusional..
thinking you've been through stuff you haven't or heard things you actually didn't hear at all..
Now idk wtf..because shes mad at me, wanting to break up with me cus I clowned on her friend who is trying to get her to come to his town or some ****..
I never know what its gonna be with Sarah..or why shes angry at me..
I swear ta God..with how she treats me..the homegirls here would probably beat her azz for it...and now, at this time..I wouldn't stop some of the old school homegirls from kicking her azz, as well as some of the more frequent newer members of GS...
and I realize..to ANY homegirl..if you beat my ladies azz..you have good reason..because she ain't treating me right the way she should...
Calling her "friend" Alfred up on the phone..and making plans to go see him for a weekend..with no reassurance that she'll ever come back...mind you, Alfred is someone who she knows online..shes never met him in person before....
and I'm kinda worried for her safety...and Teddii isn't dumm..I know for a damm fact hes trying to get in my lady's pants...
and I already told this fool off..and he goes "Your not from Compton g..you ain't Eazy-E or Dr. Dre.." or some shyt like that..mofo has no idea who the **** I am or what I'm about..I'd slap his ****' face off if I could..hit on & flirt with my byitch..haha..you could get ya face busted, especially this guy..for all I care..
Hes not ****' gettin' Sarah..**** that..I'll choke dude..
Not to mention my lady's byitching just makes me want to scream in her face..cus I ain't done nothing but help her when she doesn't have anything & help put food & milk in her frig for her & her baby with my SSI money..
yeah...this girl is sooo deprived, shes so hurt by me...LOL yeah right..I say GS throws no pity party for this chick...
If shes crying..good..cus she got what she deserved, she bit the hand that feed her..and if shes crying, I know she really does care, but maybe can't put it into words...
I still don't know wtf I did to make her say that she wants to break up with me..she was fine on Saturday when i went to her house..we got along...
See GangStyle...if your a man..NEVER let another man talk to your lady...ladies NEVER let another byitch talk to your man..it'll **** with their head.. LOL
Aside from that..I'm kinda sad..I feel I need to save my love life right now homie...
only thing is..i'm not good at expressing myself when it comes to relationships...
Relationships always scare me....and I think if this chick does me wrong..if she leaves...I won't have a girlfriend for a very long time..cus I would have major trouble trusting a female again...
Especially a girl who traveled a thousand somethin' miles just to be with me..and then hurts me..**** that..I'd rather be ****...
I was so happy when she came here.....now its just fuked up..I don't know if she cares about me or not... :(
I don't deserve this GS...I didn't do anything...I was trying to get my 22 year old girlfriend to wise up & not act like a little kid or throw pity parties & expect people to feel bad for her..or to overly worry herself about the future...some people just don't get gangsta humor like we do..half the shyt I told her just joking..she thought I was being serious...
Same kinda shyt I went through a few years back...
She tells me I don't listen..when I hear everything she says...