I WRITE DIS HUMBLY N GRATEFUL KNOWIN I CAN ALWAYZ LOOSE MORE, DATZ Y I COUNT MY BLESSINGZ, I THANK DA LORD 4 MY HEALTH N 4 WUT I HAVE, EVEN THO I GOT IT THRU DOIN DIRT...I STILL GOT IT N IM STILL ALIVE, HEALTHY, N FREE...IT KUD ALWAYZ B WORSE...IT WONT CHANGE TIL I CHANGE, IM WAITIN 4 PPL 2 HELP ME, BUT NO1 KAREZ IF I LIVE OR DIE, I GUESS I GUTTA KARE ENUFF ABOUT MY SELF....
I KNO CRIME DONT PAY N U PAY DA PRICE 4 DA FAST $$$ Y GET, N I GUTTA HUMBLE HEART N CONSCIENCE, BUT MY HEART IZ WEAK N FULLA PAIN...IZ IT PAIN I CAUSE MYSELF BY FOLLOWIN PPL N PUTTIN FAITH, LUV, N TRUST IN DEM INSTEAD OF GOD, OR AM I JUZ NIEVE N GULLABLE 4 THINKIN TRILL LUV EXIST IN NE1 BUT GOD....
I NEED $$$ 2 LIVE, I AINT TALKIN BOUT LAVISH LIVIN, IM TALKIN BOUT SURVIVIN....I CANT B A BUM...I AINT GOT FAMILY N PPL 2 HELP ME...I CANT GET A JOB CUZ DA ECONOMYZ FUKD N I NEED $$$ NOW 2 LIVE, NOT IN 10 YEARZ FROM GOIN 2 COLLEGE N GETTIN A NON GUARANTEED JOB....
I C LOTTA CHRISTIANZ WIT GOOD JOBZ, RICH FAMILIEZ, N DRIVIN FANCY CARZ N LIVIN GOOD, Y HOMELESS PPL LOOKIN IN DA TRASH 4 FOOD N NO1 KAREZ...WUT KIDNA WORLD N LIFE IZ DIS...
I GUESS IF I LIVE BY FAITH, I WUD KNO GOD PROVIDE...BUT IM TIRED OF HIM TESTIN ME...I CANT TAKE NO MORE...IM AT ROCK BOTTOM...IM TIRED OF LOOSIN...$$$, PPL, LUV, FAITH...I FEEL IF I LET GO OF MY HUSTLIN MENTALITY, I MITE NOT NEVA GET IT BAK N 4EVA B BROKE...BUT I WUD STILL HAVE GOD N I KNO HE WUD PROVIDE 4 ME N DAT I WONT SLIP OR FAIL...
IM TIRED OF STRUGGLIN EVERY SECOND N RISKIN MY LIFE N FREEDOM JUZ 2 C ANOTHER DAY...REAL **** KAN REL8 N FEEL MY PAIN, MOST PPL KANT N THINK IM CRAZY...IM DA ONLY 1 I KNO WHO AINT DEAD OR LOCKD DOWN OUTTA ERRBODY I KNEW SINCE I KAME OUT DA WOMB...I AINT GOT NO WIFEY, FRIENDZ, OR FAM...JUZ ME IZ LEFT ON EARTH 2 DEAL WIT DA PAIN DEY CAUSED....BUT I GOT GOD, N DATZ ALL I NEED 2 SUCCEED, ONLY HIZ LUV IZ TRILL N PURE!!!....ONLY GOD DONT LIE N DECIEVE OR CHANGE UP ON U...EVERY1 ELSE JUZ TRY 2 USE U N BURN U N STAB U IN DA BAK....WHEN U BROKE DEY LAUGH N PASS BY, WHEN U BALLIN DEY ALL KUM AROUND SAYIN DEY NEVER LEFT U....**** FAKE FRIENDZ...DA ONLY TRU FRIEND IZ GOD!!!....I KNO I SOUND COLD HEARTED, BUT IM JUZ TELLIN U HOW IT IZ...DA TRUTH HURTZ..
EVERY1 BUT GOD GONE LET U DOWN N HURT U N DISAPPEAR EVENTUALLY, Y? BECUZ DER LUV AINT TRILL N DEY DONT KARE BOUT UR NEEDZ, JUZ DER OWN...LIVE 2 DEEP 4 LIFE WIT JUZ GOD...DATZ DA ONLY WAY U CAN SUCCEED IN DIS COLD ENVIOUS DOG EAT DOG WORLD WHERE YA BEST FRIEND WILL SNITCH ON U 2 AVOID A BID OR CLAP U N HAVE U SET UP 4 $$$...JUZ REMEMBER, DA ONLY TRILL FRIEND IZ GOD!!!...HE'Z ALWAYZ DER N ALWAYZ 4GIVEZ, HE NEVER WILL HURT U N HIZ LUV IZ DA TRILLEST!!!...KEEP GOD 1ST N LIVE BY FAITH...FOLLOW GOD, HIS WISDOM, N DA BIBLE...DATZ DA -ONLY- WAY 2 TRULY SUCCEED IN DIS COLD WORLD...REAL TALK!!!..