LOL..NAA BUT ON DA REALZ I BEEN SMOKIN N DRINKIN 2 MUCH LATELY...MAYB ITZ CUZ EVERY1 WHO KUM FROM POVERTY N PAIN DO IT OR MAYB IM JUZ SURROUNDED BY PPL WHO DO IT N I CANT RESIST SINNIN....N WUTZ SAD N DEPRESSIN BOUT IT IZ DAT NO1 GIVE A **** OR WANNA HELP ME IF I WANTED HELP...MANE I FEEL LONELY AS **** IN DIS COLD WORLD...I AINT GOT NO1 BUT GOD...REAL TALK!!!...ALL MY FAM DEAD N SAME WIT MY FRIENDZ...DEY ALL LOCKD DOWN OR BURRIED...N MY GIRL A FAKE HOE DAT I CANT EVA B WIT AGAIN...HIP HOP IZ DIEIN...I KUD GO ON N ON BOUT Y DIS WORLD AINT NUFFIN BUT PROBLEMZ N PAIN....
IM DA LAST OF A DEAD BREED...ALL DA TRILL **** DEAD OR IN JAIL....MY LIFE AINT NUFFIN BUT PAIN...HOW DO I KEEP FROM GOIN INSANE??...I KNO I NEED 2 B MAKIN MUZIC N TALKIN BOUT HOW I OVERKAME DIS ISH N MADE IT, BUT SUMTIMEZ I FEEL LIKE IT AINT HUMANLY POSSIBLE 2 TAKE DIS MUCH PAIN WITHOUT SMOKIN OR DRINKIN OR GOIN INSANE...HONESTLY I DUNNO NE1 WHO BEEN THRU WUT I HAVE N MADE IT OUT DA HOOD N WUZ SUCCESSFUL OR WENT 2 COLLEGE...DA ONLY PPL I KNO WHO BEEN THRU LESS DEN 1/2 AS MUCH AS ME ALL DEAD, LOCKD UP, HOMELESS, OR DRUG ADDICTZ...
IM LIVIN WIT NO HOPE CUZ OF MY SURROUNDINGZ, CIRCUMSTANCEZ N CUZ NO1 SUCCEEDIN...I DIDN'T CHOSE DIS LIFE, I WUZ BORN IN2 POVERTY WIT NUFFIN N NO1..Y DID MY MOMMA HAVE ME IF SHE KNEW SHE KUDN'T SUPPORT ME N DAT I WUDNT HAVE A FAMILY??...WUT KINDA SELFISH ANIMAL WUD BRING UP IN A KID IN 1 OF DA WORST AREA'Z WIT DA HIGHEST CRIME RATEZ N NO $$$ OR JOB...DAT AINT LUV...LUV WUD B KNOWIN U CAN SUPPORT A KID B4 U HAVE HIM...N I KNO SHE DO DA BEST SHE CAN, BUT IF U CANT FEED EM, DONT BREED EM...REAL TALK!!!..
IM FORCED 2 B A LEADER N PRODIGY WHO MAKEZ IT OUT DA HOOD N DOEZ GOOD, DATZ MY PURPOSE 4 LIFE N Y GOD CREATED ME, 2 GIVE PPL HOPE BY CHANGIN MY LIFE N SHOWIN DEM DEY CAN 2, BUT ITZ HARD WHEN U CANT FOLLOW OR DEPEND ON NO1 BUT GOD N SUMTIMEZ U DOUBT HE EXIST CUZ HE AINT BLESSIN U...
MOST PPL WHO BEEN THRU A FRACTION OF WUT I HAVE WUD COMMIT SUICIDE OR B LOCKD UP OR B SINNIN 10 X MORE DEN ME.....I AINT GOT NO FAMILY 2 KARE BOUT ME N SAY WUT IM DOIN IZ WRONG OR TELL ME WUTZ RITE...I AINT GOT NO FRIENDZ LEFT, DEY ALL DEAD OR LOCKD UP...MAYB IM BLESSED CUZ I AINT, OR MAYB IM CURSED CUZ IM LEFT WIT ALL DA PAIN...I AINT GOT NO LEGAL WAY 2 MAKE GOOD $$$...I GUTTA RISKS MY LIFE N FREEDOM JUZ SO I CAN EAT Y OTHER PPL GET $$$ HANDED 2 DEM...NO1 SAID DA WORLD OWEZ U OR LIFE IZ FAIR...IM NOT LOOKIN 4 SYMPATHY...IM JUZ LOOKIN 4 SUM1 2 FEEL MY PAIN N UNDERSTAND MY LIFE....
Y DOEZ GOD KEEP TESTIN ME...Y HE GIVE OTHER PPL EZ LIVEZ N MAKE DEM RICH N HE MAKE DA POOR SUFFER N STRUGGLE UNTIL DEY DIE?!?....WUT KINDA GOD IZ DAT?!?....DIS WORLD COLD AS **** N NO1 GIVE A **** BOUT NO1 BUT DEMSELVEZ N DER OWN SURVIVAL...IM SICKA READIN BOUT ALL DESE CRAZY PPL DOIN CRAZY ISH ON DA NEWZ...PPL BLOWIN EACH OTHER UP...SHOOTIN SPREEZ...PPL MOLESTIN KIDZ...PPL BUYIN LAND ROVERZ Y PPL DIEIN FROM HUNGER....A FUKD UP ECONOMY WIT NO JOBZ N NOW DA WORLD A GHETTO...AINT SUFFIN GOOD IN DIS WORLD?!?....
I GUESS NOT N IT NEVA WILL B BECUZ OF SUFFIN BOUT ADAM N AN APPLE OR SUFFIN...LOL...I DUNNO....IM ONLY LIVIN 4 GOD...**** FAKE FRIENDZ, FAM, N $$$...DAT ISH TEMPORARY N WILL LEAVE U N DISAPPEAR, WHEN U LOSE ERRTHANG ONLY GOD GONE REMAIN....I FEEL LIKE IM LIVIN IN ****, N ERRDAY A TEST OR MY FAITH...I GUTTA RESISTS SINNIN N TEMPTATIONZ IN "****" (EARTH) IF I WANNA GET 2 HEAVEN...ERRDAY A STRUGGLE N TEST...I CAN MAKE IT THO...I KNO I CAN...I JUZ NEED MORE FAITH N STRENGTH FROM GOD...MY HEART BEEN BROKEN 2 MANY TIMEZ...ESPECIALLY DA LAST TIME FROM MALIKA...I NEED YA 2 PRAY 4 ME...I DONT WANNA KEEP LIVIN DIS LIFE OF CRIME N SIN, BUT WUT AM I SPOSDA DO?!?...DER R NO ALTERNATIVEZ EXCEPT BEIN BROKE N HOMELESS...NOW I GOT DA ABC BOYZ LOOKIN 4 ME 2...ITZ 1 THANG AFTER ANOTHER AFTER ANOTHER DEN U DIE...WUT A LIFE....