I TELL MA SELF ERRDAY I CANT KEEP LIVIN DIS WAY N DOIN WUT I KNO IZ WRONG N NOT RITE N EXPECT GOD 2 4GIVE ME N ME 2 GET IN2 HEAVEN, BUT DEN I REMIND MYSELF AT DA SAME TIME DA WAY IM LIVIN N BEIN BORN IN2 POVERTRY WIT NO $$$ N FAM AINT RITE EITHER N DA WAY DA GOV. DONT DO NUFFIN 2 HELP AINT RITE, N DA ONLY WAY I CAN SUCCEED IZ BY DOIN WUT MY HEART TELLZ ME AINT RITE...DEN I START 2 LOSE HOPE N FOCUS AND REALIZE I GUTTA TURN 2 CRIME 2 SURVIVE...I START THINKIN BOUT HOW DERZ NO JOBZ NEWHERE N I LOOK AROUND N I C NO HOPE, EVERY1 WHO BEEN THRU 1/2 OF WUT I HAVE BROKE N HOMELESS OR SLANGIN N USIN D'Z N DOIN ALL SORTA OTHA ILLEGAL ISH 2 SURVIVE....I DONT C N INSPIRATION NO MORE...NO1 MAKIN IT OUT DA GHETTO N KUMIN FROM NUFFIN N MAKIN LOTTA $$$...DAT AINT REALITY...DATZ A MINORITY OF PPL...I KNO I GUTTA BELIEVE IN MY SELF N IN GOD N HAVE FAITH, BUT I ALSO GUTTA LIVE N REALITY N REALIZE AINT NOBODY BUT ME GONE PAY MY BILLZ N FEED ME...REAL TALK...
I STRUGGLE ERRDAY 2 DO WUT GOD WANTZ EVEN THO WE LIVIN IN SIN N GOD IZ ALWAYZ TESTIN MY FAITH...NUFFIN GOOD KUM EZ..IF WE WUZ LIVIN IN PEACE IT WUD B 2 EZ 2 GET IN2 HEAVEN...GOD GUTTA TEST R FAITH SO HE CAN REWARD US IF WE FAITHFUL ON EARTH OR SEND US 2 **** IF WE NOT...BUT DEN I WONDER IF GOD WUZ ALL LUV Y HE MAKE US GO THRU **** 2 GET 2 HEAVEN??...NA MEAN...ERRTIME I IGNORE GOD'Z KALLIN I TURN BAK 2 CRIME N ALL I GET IZ FAILURE IN DA END, MAYB TEMPORARY SUCCESS, BUT IT DONT LAST 4EVA N IZ LIMITED, DA ONLY WAY 2 TRULY SUCCEED IZ BY FOLLOWIN GOD, U CANT SUCCEED WITHOUT HIM...REAL TALK!!!