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Kesha Plus One by Lakesha Please say I'm more. Do they still know me as Kesha? Ol girl who laughed at everything, kept a smile on her face to hide her pain. Ol girl who swore her life on Pac's words. Know I dont think they do. They know me as Ol girl who was pregnant in 10th grade, same girl who had a babygirl with the most beautiful complexion and the biggest eyes you ever seen. I love my lil girl, dont deny that...but do they know me as more than a young mother? No, I don't think so. Can they ask more about my day than how many diapers I changed and if I decided to stay with babygirl's daddy? No, I don't think no one looks in my eyes without seein loneliness. Switchin songs from Emotional RollerCoaster to the baby's mama theme song by fantasia wishin i could be like her and make it out there. realizing being young aint fun no more. Goin downtown for the weekend, goin out with friends just makes me miss the ol me. I can't go somewhere without calling to see if lil mija is doing okay.its just the beginning, only 2 months old and the drama is only a light load is what they say. They don't ask me if I need new clothes, maybe a lil money for me. I don't even ask myself because I am not just Kesha no more.Not just another girl goin out every weekend, not having a care in the world. I am Kesha plus one. So am I more than some girl's mami? yes, but for everyone else to realize that... impossible. The struggle stays and one day I know I'll wake up with a honest smile on my face but as for today I guess I deal with it, known only as ol girl with a daughter, ol girl who dont go out anymore. Kesha Plus one, damn why'd trouble come to me like this? I won't never forgive myself for skippin bout ten years a my life. Maybe I was meant to be Kesha plus one, I'll never know. It ain't even had to be like this, I won't ever know how it felt to make somethin a myself without bein obligated to. |